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Thursday, January 31, 2013

Slowing down & unplugging

That's what I've been doing for the past few days. This past weekend found me sniffing a bit & thinking to myself, "Hm... I think I'm getting a cold."

Despite my body trying to warn me, I went along my business & didn't consistently do anything to boost my immune system. Apparently I'm a little slow sometimes... o_O

So Monday morning found me stuffy & sicky feeling & Tuesday found me full blown sick, with a congested head & sneezing my ass off. I have seriously never sneezed so much in my life. Good grief.

Since Tuesday, I've been doing all the things I should have been doing at the first inkling I was getting a cold... Lots of tea... my vitamins... some Echinacea & Goldenseal capsules... lots & lots of water & the occasional cup of cocoa. ^-^ Good, hearty, healthy food.

Why do I always wait until I'm actually sick to take care of myself? I forget when I'm fine & don't make it a priority. There's always so much else to do, errands to run, dishes to wash, etc...

So one of the things I'm trying to do as of now is to take better care of myself. To make sure I get enough sleep. To get exercise. To eat good, nutritious food that I cook myself, not that I buy pre-made at the store. And for the love of all that's good, no more fast food... I've been so sick the past two or three times I ate fast food, that this hasn't been an issue. At all. And I'm happier for it. ^-^

This also goes hand in hand with making time for myself. I have a tendency to feel guilty if I'm doing things I enjoy, because surely there's something else I could better do with my time. I know this isn't true, but I know a lot of people (mostly women) who feel this way. It's something that I'm working on too.

One big thing I'm doing for myself this year is taking part in SouLodge. I have another post entirely about this, which I feverishly started writing earlier in the month. I'd completely forgotten about that post until now...

But with SouLodge, I am allowing myself to take time for myself. I am learning to listen to that little voice inside me, that grows louder & more sure each time I acknowledge that she's there & that she's ME.

So hopefully next time my body tries to tell me something, I'll listen & pay attention.

But until then, I'm battling a cold & sipping mint cocoa. ^-^

I'm feeling better today than I did yesterday, so I'm hopeful that by this weekend I'll be just peachy keen.

Oh... and another thing I've decided to do this year is request the holidays I work off. I want very much this year to celebrate the Wheel in its entirety. Maybe one day I'll be able to do that on days I work, but since I usually don't do anything celebratory on days I work, I'm just going to ask for them off. Then I'll have my whole day to do what I feel needs doing.

It's very important to me to begin celebrating my Holy Days in the ways that I want to. I don't usually go for elaborate anything, but I'd really like to be able to cook a meal for Britt & I to enjoy together. To spend some time outside or blog or journal or draw, paint, sing, dance, whatever I feel like doing to celebrate. ^-^

Well then, on the note of taking care of myself, I'm off to finish my cocoa & head to bed. I've spent most of the last two days in bed, which was good, but now that I'm starting to feel a bit better I'm wanting to stay up all night... which wouldn't be a problem, except I have errands to run in the morning before I go to work tomorrow evening.

So off to bed. Goodnight & sweet dreams to all of us.

XOXO

Friday, January 04, 2013

Welcome, New Year & Year of Renewal.

Happy New Year, my sweets!

I, for one, am wholly thrilled to see 2012 done & gone.

This year is going to be great, I can feel it in my bones, my heart, every fiber of my being.

I had my Word for 2013 picked shortly after Christmas, and have been striving to live it every day since then.

Britt & I were driving in the car down James St. We'd just passed the Cruisin' Coffee & Trader Joe's. We were talking about our Words for 2013, and I was explaining that while I had an idea of what I wanted my word to embody, I still hadn't figured out exactly what the word itself was. And then the next thing that came out of my mouth was the word "Committed".

And there I had it. My Word for 2013. I felt everything shift. That last piece of puzzle fell into place & I felt like I was slightly moved from where I'd just been a moment before. I can't think of any better way to describe it. It was amazing and wonderful.

According to Dictionary.com, to commit means the following:


1. to give in trust or charge; consign.
2. to consign for preservation: to commit ideas to writing; 
3. to pledge (oneself) to a position on an issue or question;
4. to bind or obligate, as by pledge or assurance;
5. to entrust, especially for safekeeping;

The last definition I especially like... I am entrusting myself with the care, health & well-being of, well, myself. I am putting myself in charge of my own safekeeping. No one is going to fix me, mend me, get me healthy or happy, but ME. So I am committed to doing so.

I am committed to letting this year be the year that I ditch my bad food & fitness habits & trade up for healthier practices.

I am committed to making time for myself & not feeling guilty about it. Time for me to do what I love, and do what I truly need to, to keep my physical, mental, spiritual & emotional Self healthy and happy.

I am committed to creating and taking responsibility for the environment I want to live in.

I am committed to live mindfully.

To whatever I want to do, and whoever I want to be, I am committed to do and be what & who I want.

This is a huge 180 degree turn for me. You see, I am kind of (totally) a commitment-a-phobe. Part of this stems from my eternal worry that I won't have the money to do something when the time comes to do it. This has happened innumerable times, so it's almost like I expect it to happen, which causes quite the anxiety when asked to commit to things requiring money.

However, I've realized that I base so many of my decisions on fear of not having, whether it be time, money, energy, desire, whatever, that I do nothing.

So this year I am facing my biggest hangup head on. I'm kicking ass & taking names and nothing is going to stop me.

I'm signed up for the Spartan Sprint in August that I've been yammering about since last year some time, and I'm actively working by butt off (literally!) to get in shape & get healthy. But, if you're interested in all that jazz, poke my other blog here, for all things fitness & health related.

We're only four days into January, and I am amazed at how different this year already feels. I usually hate the end of the old & the beginning of the new years. I usually am reminded that once again, a new year is starting & I've accomplished little to nothing of what I wanted to in the previous year(s). This year has been different so far. I was ecstatic to lay 2012 to rest & welcome in 2013... a year that I am convinced is filled with wonderful things, just waiting for us to discover or create for ourselves.

I feel refreshed, renewed and hopeful... I haven't felt truly hopeful for a long, long time. I have desperately held onto what I thought was hope, with the tips of my fingernails ripping & breaking & chipping away as things spiraled out of control. But what I have now, this is real hope, real positive thinking & real belief that this year is going to be amazing and wonderful. This year will be different. This year, I am committed, truly, undeniably, unshakably committed to myself and those I love.

And so, my dears, with a heart filled to bursting with joy & laughter & hope for a wondrous year, I wish you all a very happy New Year! This year is going to be amazing, and I am incredibly grateful that we'll be sharing it together.

Love & hugs & good night.

XOXO