Unless I have a particularly witty or catchy title, or it's something obvious like, "Garden Pics", I'm always at a loss for a title... mostly because I'm rambling about whatever. Oh well.
Has it really only been two months since I posted last? Yeah, but it feels like ages. So much as happened, and none of it the things that were supposed to have happened... but that's a long story and I kind of need to get to bed at some point tonight.
Fortunately I am back to working one job instead of three. My cats now remember who I am and my sanity is at least somewhat intact. ^-^
Britt graduated with her LPN and has a nifty job at Planned Parenthood. She loves it there. ^-^
We're still eventually moving to Portland so I can go to school and learn to be a pastry chef, but it'll happen in it's time. Not June and probably not November either (that was Plan B...). I'm really bummed about waiting, but we can't move until certain things are taken care of (like getting a car that runs... another long story.)
I am slowly picking up the pieces of me that I let go while I was doing nothing but working and occasionally sleeping these past few months. I nearly had a panic attack a few weeks ago because when I paused to look up at the moon, which usually draws me in with her beauty and I can feel an almost tug in my chest, I felt nothing. Nada. I felt dead. It was like I had worked so hard at shielding from any kind of emotion that might get in the way of working insane hours, that I'd totally cut myself off from everything. I was walking the couple miles home from work at the hospital and cried and cried. I needed to get myself sorted out and make time for the things I not only love, but the things I need to be okay.
So that's about where I am right now. Slowly rebuilding myself, unlocking the doors I'd locked and feelings I'd locked away while I did nothing but work so we could survive and keep our apartment. All the craziness and shit was worth it though. Britt graduated with a 4.0 GPA and got an amazing job she loves. We're doing alright again and I'm adjusting to my new work schedule (yet another long story...), but working evening shift sucks ass... I miss my night shift! o_o
Alrighty then... I've dipped my toe back in the blogging pool... so now all I have to do is figure out all this new layout and shit... Have I mentioned I hate change sometimes? Like when they rearrange my grocery store or blogging site, and I end up completely lost for several weeks... lolz.
I'm off to bed now so I can hopefully be up at a decent time in the morning. Nighty night, I've missed all y'all terribly and I am super happy to have time to do the things that make me happy again. ^-^