Some days I feel like I'm clawing my way up a glass mountain... Today is one of those days.
I'm feeling like I'll never get caught up on my bills, my house work, my home work, my life in general.
I'm feeling frustrated, because all I want to do is just be quiet. To be still. To wait for my Self to wake back up, stretch & go about the things I like to do. But those who love me are worried that I'm getting more depressed (which I'm not), because I'm not doing "all the things I usually like to". I totally understand why this is a concern, but feeling pressured to do things simply for the sake of doing something, instead of nothing, is making me feel like I'm drowning or being smothered. However, I am in full agreement that spending as much time in bed as I have been is not so great. So I'm going to have to work on finding that elusive balance between listening to what my body is telling me it wants (quiet & rest) and being lazy. I think once I have this worked out, things will get back on track.
And now that I've got that out, I think that there's house work & home work to be worked on & bills to either be paid or arranged to be paid.
I also need to go buy some more lavender & take another bath...
But before I do anything, I'm going to drink some koffee & take some advil for this damn headache. And then I'm going to focus on chilling the fuck out & just breathing. I'll be ok, I know I will. And perhaps I'll do some spinning... few things zen me like spinning.
Well then. We have a plan. Put PJs & slippers on, take advil, drink koffee & spin. Sounds good to me. ^-^ And I feel a bit better already.